"Why can't I be happy with a steady job year after year, like they are?" I longed for stability, routine, security. For meaningful work that fulfilled me, yet had to be left at the office when I went home. But I needed work that allowed me to teach, lead and support. That's where my passion lived. Even though it was stressful, I got filled up by the challenges of managing our department's environment so that employees were supported in doing their jobs and had opportunities to grow, and customers could count on stellar service. I lit up as we fumbled together to develop our communication and teamwork skills. I felt joy when employees grew in ways they valued. Yet I longed to be fulfilled by steady, predictable, fairly drama-free desk work - thinking my stress would be less if I could just be happy with that.